I am in pain, are you?

Ramadhan day 4, 1442H

Errday, the same happy scene plays over and over again. Everything is just your pranks.

Then I woke up, took my phone, and scrolled for my 'good morning' texts.

None. 

Reality struck. I threw the dice and gave you a chance, though been given a fake one beforehand. 

Here I am five months later, still fail and broken.

Oblivian. I am in pain, are you?

You took everything and left me none. I have nothing left, no emotions, no more space, no more hopes. Nada. 

Posted on 13/11/2020 12:45 AM

I asked, "Why would you play with fire when you can't handle the heat?" it seems like my question has been ignored. Well, I didn't expect any answer though. Because that side doesn't seem to comprehand my way of talking. Not like we're on the different page, but somehow I'm a little bit above thee, I guess.. It has been a challenging two years for me to regrow myself. If I were to say, dead on the inside, is because of the unforgiven mistakes. I'm the one who aren't willing to make peace with it. Going though these stages and phases, I can't deny, it took the whole blood, sweat and tears, literally, for me to go through 

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